Whew! That was long, but some of my furry compatriots had to have they say, besides, I thank them for their insight on this vital topic. But I think its now time to add my 2 cents in too! Okay, here goes: (Mind you, it's 2:30 in the morning- so forgive me if I ramble on.......) Well I believe my furriness was evident from a young age. I always liked lions, watching them in the circus. As the years went by, I lost touch with that "inner fascination", being concerned with my daily mundane life. When the Lion King movie came out in 1994, I was - well for the lack of a better word - hooked! When I watched the Lion King movie, I returned to a place, tucked in the recesses of my mind, of such happiness and bliss. Of course I thought of it as a movie until about 5 years later. I found the alt.lifestyle.furry and alt.fan.furry newsgroups and read them in earnest. I realised that being furry helped explain a lot of things in my life that didn't make sense. I was happier when I realized that, "Hey! I'm not alone!" I discovered my love for animals was deeper than I thought. I noticed that my behavior to others did compare strongly to male lions in the wild. For example, if i was mad- I would let it boil without telling the other person and when push came to shove- i exploded in a rage of fury- such pure instinct and adrenaline- flowing through my veins. Like how a lion reacts when another male has invaded his territory. I am also a caring person- much like a lion who watches out for the members of the pride. When I started realizing how much of a lion I was, I was just amazed. After all, I always was much of a people person anyways..... In mid-1999, I saved for my first fursuit. I finally received it in March of this year. To me, the lion fursuit brings me closer to my desire to be the lion that I am. When I put on my fur- I become less Human.... I become more aware of my hearing and smell. It is a psychological shift- one which defies labeling. I act like a lion (like they do it on the Discovery Channel) and have a quicker pulse, yet I am more relaxed and stress free, then when I am not in my fur. Because of my lionish shift- I gained the will power and courage to leave a predictable dead-end fast food job- and apply for a new job in retail. I wish I had done it sooner. I am happier now, yet as a lion, sad- because- my family does not or cannot understand the happiness, joy, and wonders of furriness. Furriness can be a most positive shift for someone- in terms of self-esteem and determination. When you realize you have a animal spirit thats part of you, you feel closer to nature, and learn to be happier with less material goods and wealth, and desire a more simple way of living. I have learned to trust my feelings more and my raw instinct- because without it- I wouldn't be so sucessful at this time in my life right now. Furriness is a part of me- and no one can remove the lion called "Simba" from my soul. Thanks for reading this. It means a lot to me. Furriness Forever! Jeremy Normand, aka Simba T. Lion |